Verse one

“Its so hard for me to let go and let God” - Sometimes I want certain things so bad, specific things ya know, that ill put immense effort into attaining them and when i inevitably dont (most of these things are outside of my control and independent of me) I get frustrated, so as of late I’ve been trying to get better about letting go and taking things I cant control less to heart and more like a grain of salt.

“Shit that i want comes to me late if at all” - Again, speaking to the theme of not always getting what you want. And sometimes receiving those things, but way later than you think you needed them. Whole time you got thus far without needing that thing so maybe you dont need it.

“I wanna say eff it” - a bit of a stretch. I love making art and would never say eff it fr, BUT sometimes i think of the possibility of just completely abandoning everything ive built and getting a job, say as a detective or a dentist or graphic designer, something that has absolutely nothing to do with what i've done musically. But alas, i can't, explaining the following line “If I did something else I would still feel the thirst”

“Unless is something i want i dont stress it” - I feel like as humans we make shit too difficult for ourselves. Our needs and wants are relatively simple and easy to get at; i think we get too caught up in the system we were born into and get trapped, which we’ve all fallen victim to in some way or another. I want to start recognizing those things in the system I can avoid, so that i can avoid them.

“I dont need much but a friend and a mic/One in the same…” - I accidentally dropped the mic I record with recently and when I saw that it was cracked my heart broke, luckily it still works though. I recorded this song with it.

“Unless its Murakamian” - Haruki Murakami wrote a book called “What I Talk About When I Talk About Running” about how becoming a marathon runner shaped him as a person and the parallels between running and writing. What i got from that book is that persistence and consistency is key if you want to make a task easier for yourself. That book is why ive tried to write songs more often…and why I began jogging (only 1-2 miles at a time)--which is something of a miracle considering I hate exercising.

“RIP D” - Rest in Peace DMX, the OG dog-loving rapper

“If I never meet you this is all you’ll ever need” - This song may quite literally be all you need to know about me if you want to be my friend. Not necessarily the first verse—thats just general stuff, but the second verse is where I go in.


Verse two

“If you get the pound will you test it” - a clever triple entendre on my part.
Pound (of weed): (A) primary point- from a plug’s perspective you don't want your trust tested by a buyer/someone you’re giving consignment to.
(B) secondary point- test the product.
Pound (fist-dap): a sign of friendship and brotherhood. Will you test my friendship ? Will you try to mess me over ? Will you not be there for me ?
Pound (dog pound): self-explanatory as there is a heavy dog theme here. I also imagine a dog betraying its owner’s trust and that owner sending that dog to a pound.

“You may not think much of it…if at all” - sometimes people dont see things the same way you do, or think about them the same way you do. You may place more importance on certain things than other people do.

“Her body marked up like a bathroom stall” - this is a line I revived from another verse that i scrapped. Brought it back because Xandi loved that line and asked me to revive it on another song, which i didnt do…but i did it here, so we’re good hehe.

“i wish that we were Floetry but always got along” - Floetry is a Hip-Hop duo consisting of a singer and a rapper. Im not sure actually whether they split amicably or not. Also, if i could re-record any part of the song itd probably be that line cuz the delivery on it couldve been tighter. There was a slight lag/fumble there, apologies.

“You wrong…shit you cant take back” - recently somebody said some mad malicious, unnecessary, uncalled for, passive aggressive stuff towards me and this was specifically written with that in mind. So thank you, person, for that material.

“I wrote this on the toilet, doo that make me the shit” - i quite literally wrote this while taking a shit. I write my best shit on the shitter tbh. Be on the look out for “I wrote this on da toilet, doo dat make me da shit ?” EP, cuz thats coming. Like deadass one day.